September 16, 2009
I was in my oncologist, Dr Ang’s clinic this afternoon. He ordered a bone scan for me which I went for two days ago and now I was in his clinic waiting for the result. Under his arrangement, I also did a complete CT scan about a month ago.
I honestly hated both procedures. To do the bone scan, the clinical assistant had to inject some radioactive tracers into my body. It felt like I was being poisoned. After the scan, I went straight home and drank a few cups of Chinese tea, hoping that the tea would cleanse my body and flush away those toxic materials.
It was a similarly terrible experience during my CT scan. The assistant injected a special dye into my body and there was a sensational feeling after the injection. After that, my body went through a big, cold machine. I couldn’t help but think about the thousands of x-rays slicing through my body. I thought I would die faster after going through all those toxic treatments.
Thank goodness that everything is over now. Both test results were clear and there wasn’t any abnormality. Dr Ang told me that I did not have to see him until next January. While I was scheduling the next appointment at the counter, the assistants gleefully told me that since they would only be seeing me next year, they should wish me “Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year” now.
Coincidentally, two days ago, my TCM doctor also told me that I need not see her so often anymore. Wow! No more doctors for the next few months. It is such a wonderful feeling.
It is exactly one year after the mishap.
On the same day last September, I was innocently doing my routine mammogram and ultrasound check-ups at East Shore Hospital. I still vividly remember waiting for my number to be called while the LCD TV repeatedly flashed the breaking news about the collapse of Lehman Brothers and the near-bankrupt of AIG.
In the one year after these mishaps, the financial world went down and up. So did my life.
During Chinese New Year’s Eve while we were counting down, Mak, Ding, Wei and I were in such a relieved mood to be able to finally close the chapter for the Year of Rat and look forward to a brand new start. To me, I was given a new lease of life indeed.
劫后余生 : 一年以后
就像我的中医师所说的，经过这一劫，对人生，我应该看得很开了。是的，生命既由不得我控制，那就坦然接受上天的安排吧。
Sunday, September 20, 2009
Friday, September 11, 2009
春之艳
1987年，初春。
那年我在位于East Lansing的密西根州立大学修读最后一个学期，当了两年多的穷学生，平日只顾省吃俭用，拼命修读学分，难得有闲情观花赏月。
不过是最后一个学期了，课业轻松，心情极佳。
Lansing虽然只处北纬约42度，因受五大湖气候影响，夏天冷凉而冬天异常严寒，初春的气温介于零度至十多度之间。
校园特大，中间由一条河由东至西贯穿着，小河冬天结冰，学生可在河面上踩着冰自由行走。春天河水渐溶，绿叶嫩芽像春笋般的竞相冒出，鸟儿一早枝头歌唱，颇有“处处闻啼鸟”之意境。
清早出门，冷风迎面扑来，人异常清爽。
这年是我第一次为春惊艳。
在校园，我看到了四处绽放的花朵，含着朝露的花瓣，娇艳欲滴。
是那鲜艳的色泽，叫人动容。
大红深紫、橙黄靛蓝、还有粉红，也有浅色的。。。像极了彩虹姐姐把她自己那缤纷的色彩洒到了花瓣上。
可是彩虹远在天边，望上去淡极了，春天的花朵就在咫尺跟前，那艳丽，非笔墨所能形容。
是的，那种色彩，决不是彩笔彩得出来的，也不是电脑拼得出来的。
那色彩是天生的，是大自然的，是属于造物者的。
那色彩是青春洋溢的，是青翠夺目的，是春天才有的。
从此，我对春天的花朵，春天的艳丽，充满憧憬。
2001年深秋和女儿从匹兹堡回新加坡休假，回美时途经法兰克福机场，发现机场内到处都在卖郁金香种球。我们买了两大包不同颜色的花种，准备回去在住所后的小花园栽种。
听同事所，种植郁金香必须在深秋时把种子埋在地里，寒冬过后，花朵会在春天绽放。
果然如此。一季严寒之后，我们的郁金香冒出芽来了，然后花开了。虽然种植得不是很成功，埋了十多二十粒的种子，只开了几束的花，但我们依然兴奋异常。
之后每每到国外旅行，只要是碰上春夏二季，我都免不了要对路边街边屋边的花朵多看几眼，拍上几张照。
不过，那感觉远远比不上第一次惊艳，那色彩，叫人念念不忘。
那年我在位于East Lansing的密西根州立大学修读最后一个学期，当了两年多的穷学生，平日只顾省吃俭用，拼命修读学分，难得有闲情观花赏月。
不过是最后一个学期了，课业轻松，心情极佳。
Lansing虽然只处北纬约42度，因受五大湖气候影响，夏天冷凉而冬天异常严寒，初春的气温介于零度至十多度之间。
校园特大，中间由一条河由东至西贯穿着，小河冬天结冰，学生可在河面上踩着冰自由行走。春天河水渐溶，绿叶嫩芽像春笋般的竞相冒出，鸟儿一早枝头歌唱，颇有“处处闻啼鸟”之意境。
清早出门，冷风迎面扑来，人异常清爽。
这年是我第一次为春惊艳。
在校园，我看到了四处绽放的花朵，含着朝露的花瓣，娇艳欲滴。
是那鲜艳的色泽，叫人动容。
大红深紫、橙黄靛蓝、还有粉红，也有浅色的。。。像极了彩虹姐姐把她自己那缤纷的色彩洒到了花瓣上。
可是彩虹远在天边，望上去淡极了，春天的花朵就在咫尺跟前，那艳丽，非笔墨所能形容。
是的，那种色彩，决不是彩笔彩得出来的，也不是电脑拼得出来的。
那色彩是天生的，是大自然的，是属于造物者的。
那色彩是青春洋溢的，是青翠夺目的，是春天才有的。
从此，我对春天的花朵，春天的艳丽，充满憧憬。
2001年深秋和女儿从匹兹堡回新加坡休假，回美时途经法兰克福机场，发现机场内到处都在卖郁金香种球。我们买了两大包不同颜色的花种，准备回去在住所后的小花园栽种。
听同事所，种植郁金香必须在深秋时把种子埋在地里，寒冬过后，花朵会在春天绽放。
果然如此。一季严寒之后，我们的郁金香冒出芽来了，然后花开了。虽然种植得不是很成功，埋了十多二十粒的种子，只开了几束的花，但我们依然兴奋异常。
之后每每到国外旅行，只要是碰上春夏二季，我都免不了要对路边街边屋边的花朵多看几眼，拍上几张照。
不过，那感觉远远比不上第一次惊艳，那色彩，叫人念念不忘。
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